What's Cool? Summer + Books!

What's Cool? is an anytime meme wherein I show to all of you the Cool things I got, happened or about to happen. Blog-related or not! ;)

This is also my version of In My Mailbox and Stacking The Shelves.






What's Cool?

Summer and books! What a perfect combination. ;)

As I'm writing this down, I'm still tired from last night's jam (I went to drums workshop and classes before that). I think I need a bunch dose of vitamins K and B complex. I need my energy back. Someone send me their energies!

So I think the Coolest that's happened this week--outside reading/blogging--is the formation of our new band: Forever Young. Ha! I feel good saying that. XD We're actually beginners, but our new members (drums and bass guitar) have been playing for quite a while now. Last night was our first jam and we sang crazy songs like Crazy For You and Baliw (song from the Philippines which meant Crazy). We also played Decode by Paramore--they told me about this earlier yesterday so I didn't have a chance to practice it and I knew I sucked at it last night. >.< It's okay, though. Better luck next time and at least I enjoyed the rest of the night. We're playing again next week! Eeep! :D Hopefully we could record that (I forgot to give my camera to someone to record it. I didn't know we were playing first so I was kinda shocked! XD) performance and maybe..maybe I'll share it you. :D

Anyhows, let's go to Cool things blog-related!

• BOOKS!

I've been lonely for the past few weeks because I haven't received any packages. :( But this week was super awesome because I received several books and good news!

For review:
Mind Games by Kiersten White (Mind Games #1)
Through The Ever Night by Veronica Rossi (Under The Never Sky #2)
Revolution 19 by Gregg Rosemblum
Taken by Erin Bowman (Taken #1)
Mila 2.0 by Debra Driza (Mila 2.0 #1)
Reboot by Amy Tintera (Reboot #1)
Towering by Alex Flinn
Enchantment by Nikki Jefford (Spellbound #3)
Click to Subscribe by L.M Augustine

Won:
A Midsummer Tights Dream by Louise Rennison (Misadventures of Tallulah Casey #2)
Endlessly by Kiersten White (Paranormalcy #3)

Super thanks to Nikki Jefford, L.M Augustine, Epic Reads and the amazing Sarah and HarperCollins!

• BLOGANNOUNCEMENT!

See that banner just below my header? The "One year. New name. New look." ? What do you think was that about? Go on, guess. :)

It is about my upcoming first blogoversary this May and together with my one year celebration, I'm also launching my newest blog name and layout. Of course, a celebration won't be complete without giveaways right? As of now, I'll be hosting three giveaways. Let's hope I could ask more people to sponsor for the giveaway, but if there's no one anymore, I promise you, you'll enjoy these giveaways I have now.

So mark the date: May 27th 2013. One year. New name. New look.

Who's excited? ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

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I've been blogging for almost a year now and my top priority is always show/give what you want and be honest. Always. So I think this is a perfect time to be honest with you guys right now. Don't worry, this is not about blogging--I don't think I'll ever stop this. I love you too much! :D What I'm talking about is..the feeling I'm experiencing as I'm writing this post. I don't have someone to talk to so let me use this page to write it all out. I don't know how to say the words and I don't know who to poke so they could listen to me so I'm writing it down. Here. Now. If you think I'm being over-dramatic or you don't have time for that, you can check out my other posts now. :)

This week has been amazing. One of the busiest, stressing, yet fun week of my 2013. Or for my whole life. It also pressured me a lot. I'm really happy with the new packages I received. I've been lonely without them. But something happened--or must I say, there is something I realized this week. Gosh, I don't even know how to start it or say it to you!

I'm really sad and down and pressured all at the same time. I'm loosing confidence and I'm feeling left out. I feel like the girl outside, looking in again. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to act and react. I know I should be fighting this one but my heart and stomach's just a hundred feet below. Very down. I'm not even talking about a broken heart.

As much as I want to tell the details to you, I can't. I still want to protect everything and everyone by not mentioning anything to the world. I just want to let you know what I'm feeling. It's hard to keep it to myself anymore. I might sound extremely happy about my new books and excited with my blog event, but what I'm feeling right now is the opposite. My heart is aching, my stomach is tied in knots and my throat feels like there's a ball in there. I feel like screaming and crying. But I can't do it. I just can't. And what's more disappointing is that the person who you thought that will listen, understand and console you has different world. In other words, the person doesn't have time for the 'emotional' me right now.

I'm so sorry for bringing you here just to read my dramatic state. I just don't know what to do or who to talk to. I think writing it helped me. Even just for a bit. Still, think of happy thoughts! What Cool things have happened to you this week? Or like me, do you also have Uncool things happened? You are free to share them with me. I've shared mine, after all. :)

Loves and hugs and kisses,